1/27/2024 0 Comments You call me out into the waves![]() I feel led to venture into different lands to really learn about different cultures. Recently, my mind has been glued on one thing – travel. While I am only 18 years old and I obviously do not have to have everything figured out for my life (and I definitely do not), I have been doing a lot of soul searching to at least get an idea for what I may want to do later on. Over the last few months I had really been struggling to figure out this calling The Lord has for me. I really wanted to challenge myself this year to do something unconventional, something I would never have thought of doing in years past. ![]() ![]() When senior year approached, I told myself that this was my last chance before college to try and overcome this never-ending battle that I have been fighting throughout grade school. High school was the transitioning point, and I’ve challenged myself each year to try to speak out more. Though not much has changed and I still feel nervous when attention is given to me, I have gotten better about it. I understand that everyone gets nervous once in a while, but this was happening on a daily basis. It used to be so bad that I would call my parents to pick me up, just to get out of a presentation/whatever social activity I would have to deal with that day. Anytime attention is drawn to me, I get this nervous and dreadful feeling in the pit of my stomach. It’s not that I don’t want to participate, it’s just difficult for me to put myself out there. Ever since elementary school, I have been the quiet one in the class- rarely raising my hand to answer a question, sinking in my seat and avoiding eye contact when there’s a class discussion, and keeping to myself throughout the school day. Before I get to that, a little bit of background: As the above lyrics from their song “You Make Me Brave” played from my phone a few days ago, I randomly realized that while I have been so fixated on trying to set up this blog for my upcoming travel endeavors, I failed to mention one of the most important steps I’ve taken in the direction of The Lord’s calling for me. Lately, I have been obsessed with listening to Bethel Music. What’s a question that’s on your heart? Share it with me by leaving a comment by noon CST on Wednesday and you’ll be entered to choose any gift you’d like from the Heart to Heart with Holley Collection on DaySpring.“You make me brave / you call me out beyond the shore into the waves…” I’m thinking and praying about what to write about this summer…. I call it “divine discontent.” It’s a restlessness within us that whispers, “You’re not home yet.” We long to be settled where we are, and yet I believe we’re made to live with a bit of longing. That’s what every God-sized dream ultimately points our hearts to: They make the veil between heaven and earth feel thinner until it seems we can almost touch the other side. God-sized dreams make me feel that way too. I close my eyes and in that most beautiful of places, that happiest of moments, my heart also feels an ache-a longing I can’t quite name. Orange and scarlet clouds drift toward the waves as music plays in the background. I’m sitting on the back deck of a restaurant overlooking the ocean. “You call me out upon the waters, the great unknown where feet may fall.” - Oceans
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